An Adventure

I hardly finish lotioning the bottom half of my right leg to run to the release of the head writing I was experiencing.

In the shower, a thought rolled its way in a looping loop inside the top of my head. I could almost feel its motion. I made it out of the shower and almost fully lotioned before giving in to this head writing thing I got going on her. The looping thought...This isn't all that there is. This isn't all there is. This isn't all that there is.

The feeling I have been carrying lately is surreal. It's spastic, it's giggly. It's a bouncy feeling that makes the shadows from my feet float right off of the ground as I go skipping along. It's hearing that we are all waiting for our lives to start. And mine just has.

I'm thrilled to travel. I'm excited and nervous. I have been running out the hot water every day and using way too much shampoo. (Sorry Sarah.) The realization, the epiphany..as I was taking advantage of my long shower, just hit me. Just like that. This isn't all that there is. There's more. There's an entire world out there that I have not even scraped the surface to an understanding of. Not that I think traveling will give me some sort of absolute understanding or that it will answer all of life's questions. Life will always have questions, it's just our way of choosing to deal with the uneasiness (that too much thought can carry) that counts. I think that traveling will remind me that life is suppose to be an adventure. It will teach me to live out of a backpack (for three+ months.) It will teach me that I can live with no jewelry, no closet full of material options. It will teach me to be even more grateful for my daily hot showers and fresh towels and clean sheets. It will take away my physical privacy and force my mental privacy to possibly consume. But there is no fear, because this isn't all that there is. Fear is not all that there is. Nothing is ever all that there is. So, for now, I will choose adventure, lace up my Merrell's, and stink to the phrase I love most...

(No, the phrase is not 'this isn't all that there is'...)

.......

...The purpose of life is to enjoy each and every moment.

(Thank you Yogi Tea for all of your wise words.)

(...And for making such good tea that I have a drawer literally full of your delicious tea bag fortunes.) 

Seven days until I'm in Singapore!!!!!!! (WOooooooooHHHOOOOoooooOoo!!!!!!!)